my vida loca?

Well first of all, Ive been doing Spanish homework for almost an hour and I LOVE it. I want to learn the language so much that it is kind of all I want to study. I have 5 super hard classes with a TON of homework, but I keep telling myself that I will do the other homework later. Ha I'm going to be kicking myself when "later" comes... but at least I might be able to have enough knowledge one day to be able to communicate with more than just English speaking people. I sure do hope so. There is a big world out there with a lot of people in it, and from the little taste that I've got, I love it and definitely want to be apart of God's bigger picture than what I see here. If he leads me in that direction then I will for sure pursue that but I don't know if that is where my calling is.

Right now in the present, however, I'm starting to see that my calling might be to stray away from the people that I've known for so long and meet knew people. Right now I'm praying that He will bring more people into my life that push me towards Him. I have to put myself out there and try and make a difference.  I can have a big influence in my team's life, but at the same time it's a hard situation to be in.  Every time I am around them I feel like such an outcast... Almost like I'm one of the freshman and I don't know any of them. I just sit there, and that is not me at all. I almost feel like I can't be myself around them all the time because I'll just get made fun of. Now I'll be the first to admit that I can handle that, but it also gets old and I'd like to be somewhat taken seriously and listened to at times.  I'm starting to think that my time where I am is almost over, but I need to take the time I have here not for granted and spend it doing whatever He wants. Maybe this is all just a learning opportunity for me to continue to lean on Him.  Like I wrote before, I've definitely felt alone in the past but this is a different feeling.  I don't necessarily feel alone, as much as I just feel like there is so much more out there.  There is such a big world and so many people for me to experience and get to know. And so many ways to make a difference.  I pray every day that I don't let these opportunities pass me up because I'm sitting around feeling sorry for myself.  I want to make a difference and every day put a smile and do something for at least one person.  Like they always say, "its the little things."

So I encourage and challenge you to every day do a little thing for someone else, and maybe this world will start to be a better place. :))))

Hasta luego,
Jenni